Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Where art thou computer?

Is it because my kids are sick? Nope.

Is it because I need to pack? No sir.

Is it because my laptop is fried? Bingo!

The place where my power cord plugs in is messed up so it does not charge. I have it at a computer repair place that seems to be on the up and up. My dad is my hero of the day because he is getting it fixed for me (aka paying for it).

I will miss you all and any drama be sure to note it for me!


Saturday, February 21, 2009

What is a friend?

A friend is a person who you can count on. A person who treats you the way they wanted to be treated. I just realize the only people that do that for me are the people on the internet. I am just having a bad, bad day.

I thought I had a go to person in the F&B (you know like brick and mortar stores are b&M. Flesh and blood is F&B). Guess I don't. I never used to be this way. If someone gave me crap and had terrible double standards I would call them on it. But there is a person in my life that is doing that and I can't call her on it because she is my ONLY friend.

I want to just tell her how I feel but I can't I am terrified of being lonely. A friend of my mom's knows a bunch of stay at home moms at the new apartment complex. She says they are always open to new mommies. I went to summer camp with a bunch of these girls (they are a church group). I am clinging dearly to this move. It is my life line.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

The Great Chicken Stock Disaster of 2009

I have some very handy friends. They do cool things like make butter, do wainscoting themselves. I aspire to be like these people. So when I got a bunch of chicken thighs with bones from Angel Food Ministries, I thought "Hey Q1 you can make chicken stock from scratch like your hero Alton Brown".

I spent all day yesterday cooking the chicken thighs in the slow cooker to make it easier to get the meat off the bones. It went very well. I had my mom bring over a stock pot, I thought it was going to be so easy.

Banana wanted to help me, so I set her up over by the fridge with the new "cookering" stuff we got her for her birthday. I go about warming up the liquid and chopping the carrots, celery and onions. Dump them in and stir.

Uh-oh my pot is smoking from the underside. No big deal if something is on the burner it will burn off. Not with my luck. So I figure I will pick up the pot wipe the bottom and we're back in business.

What is it they say about the best laid plans? As I am lifting the pot the momentum carries it forward and I end up dumping half to pot all over me and all over the floor. Luckily Banana is far enough away she misses most of the fall out. Also luckily it has just started to warm, so it feels like a warm bath. A warm bath of chickeny goodness. *gag*

I was going to try making the butter that J and C and Me made, but after this debacle I think my at home handiness is on hold for a while.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

I'm about to Break

I am at the point where I am afraid. I really don't know how much longer I can keep it together. I really, really don't. I constantly feel on the edge of a panic attack. I called our insurance to re-check our coverage, because Big Man's insurance company sent a letter saying our coverage is changing but didn't go into what. So I called. They no longer offer mental health coverage. I do not know what to do. I was supposed to have an appointment to get my medicine changed and now I can't.

I really am afraid.

Friday, February 13, 2009

What I Have Done

(X) Gone on a blind date
(X) Skipped school
(X) Watched someone die
(X) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(X) Been to Florida
( ) Been to Hawaii
(X) Been on a plane
( ) Been on a helicopter
(X) Been lost
(X) Gone to Washington, DC
(X) Swam in the ocean
(X) Cried yourself to sleep
(X) Played cops and robbers
(X) Recently colored with crayons
(X) Sang Karaoke
(X) Paid for a meal with coins only
( ) Been to the top of the St. Louis Arch
(X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(X) Made prank phone calls
( ) Been down Bourbon Street in New Orleans
(X) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue
(X) Danced in the rain
(X) Written a letter to Santa Claus
(X) Been kissed under the mistletoe
(X) Watched the sunrise with someone
(X) Blown bubbles
(X) Gone ice-skating
(X) Gone to the movies
( ) Been deep sea fishing
( ) Driven across the United States
( ) Been in a hot air balloon
( ) Been sky diving
( ) Gone snowmobiling
(X) Lived in more than one country
(X) Lay down outside at night and admired the stars while listening to the crickets
(X) Seen a falling star and made a wish
( ) Enjoyed the beauty of Old Faithful Geyser
(X) Seen the Statue of Liberty
( ) Gone to the top of Seattle Space Needle.
( ) Been on a cruise
(X) Traveled by train
( ) Traveled by motorcycle
(X) Been horse back riding
( ) Ridden on a San Francisco CABLE CAR
(X) Been to Disneyworld
( ) Been in a rain forest
(X) Seen whales in the ocean
(X) Been to Niagara Falls
( ) Ridden on an elephant
( ) Swam with dolphins

Friday Night Bloggy Time

It's that time!!! FNBT!!! Ok I am about 4 hours early but I am hoping to play Rock Band when the kiddos go down. I am going to do 2 blogs tonight since one is of a serious nature and another will be fun.

This one has a bunch of people who should be punched in the junk, not just punched but have their junk removed: http://www.dreamindemon.com/ . This site helps catch the kids that all through the cracks. We all hear about the Caylee Anthonys but what about Tangena Hussain? I can bet not one person outside of Michigan has heard of her. I cry just about every time I go here, but I think it is important. If just one person stumbles on this site and sees one of these kids in their neighborhood, and says "Hey that looks like the kid from that website I found on TQ1s blog, maybe I should call the police." Or if it is too late for the poor baby, that is one more person who has heard of them and they are not forgotten.

I found this one on my friend The Beach Life's blog (you should visit this blog because her pictures are AMAZING and she is funny), the blog is called 911 Apparently Not Just for Emergencies. I find this funny for a few reasons: 1. People really are that dumb. 2. I come from a family who does fire and rescue and police work.

You may ask why I don't feature The Beach Life in my FNBT it is because I like to concentrate on it and make comments. (Shh don't tell her but I want to buy some pictures from her for my new place.)

Thursday, February 12, 2009

By the numbers

I am going to preface this by saying my heart breaks for anyone who has struggled with infertility. Not that it matters but I fully support responsible IVF procedures.

We have all heard of the octo-mom. While I had thought she was irresponsible I was indifferent to her for the most part. She is a freak whose poor kids are going to suffer for her irresponsibility. But for some reason I am FURIOUS after reading this article: http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090212/ap_on_re_us/octuplets . I guess maybe I needed to see the numbers broken down for me.

Some months we can't even make ends meet, why in the hell should I have to pay for this woman and her litters? I understand needing WIC, food stamps etc. But if you need assistance for 6 kids why would you knowingly implant 6 more? I can understand an oops baby. But an oops IVF? Ooops oh my goodness I just tripped and fell on your turkey baster?

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

We have an IRS answer

We need to mail everything in. They will contact us if they need to. It will take a minimum of 6-8 weeks. Why can't anything ever be easy?

Not my kids?

So I got everything straightened out with my paperwork (thank you BBC lady) but my taxes were actually rejected because according to the IRS my kids are not my kids. Interesting. So based on what the lady on the phone said we are going to refile online and then wait and see. Then if rejected again even TT can't help us we have to mail them in.

If they aren't mine can I give them back?

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Please excuse the following language

I have just had an example of Douchebaggery at it's finest. One of the few things your job entails is to make sure payroll is processed properly. Well thanks to Mr. Idiot accountant mine wasn't.

Back story - I work for the same company as my mom. Usually it is great because I can work from home and save money for day care. I can put in as many or as few hours as I want. Sweet deal all in all. HOWEVER twice this summer they forgot to take taxes, FICA, social security etc out of my check. Not a big thing. I held out about what the total would have be and put it into a savings account.

Well the idiot in the accounting office sent me the wrong forms. He filed my stuff with the IRS as if I was self employed for those two checks. And he sent me W2s. So now instead of my super easy 1040, I have to fill out two different forms and I don't think I can file online anymore. If any of you wonderful readers know anything about filing with 1099-misc forms let me know.

Friday, February 6, 2009

The News so far

Well Cole has been at the doctor's since 1130 this morning. His blood work has all come back normal so far so it can't be cancer right? I mean if it is like humans his blood work wouldn't be normal. But his liver, kidney function is normal. His thyroid is fine, his glucose was high but vet said that if he was nervous that could impact it.

I just want to thank my friends who comment on here. I don't think you all know how much you mean to me. I truly, truly value you guys.

I also want to thank my friend TrickyTechieGirl (not her real name, but her Xbox SN) she watched my kiddos today and let me borrow her car so I could take him to the vet.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Some good news

We found my iPod. It had gotten trapped underneath our grocery bin. (Vues have these built in grocery holders and it got trapped between the carpet and the plastic.)

The Big C

Well the emergency vet says he is 80% sure the mass in Cole's belly is cancer. He is positive Cole does not have FIP (which is good). But he wasn't sure enough that it was cancer to put him down without more tests. The problem?

We can't afford the tests. He needs a ton more blood work, another x-ray, a sonogram, an endoscopy, a biopsy and all the testing. We spent $400.00 last night on just the emergency vet visit, one x-ray and a CBC.

But he said the mass could be nothing. So I don't want to put him down if the mass is nothing. But I also don't want to prolong any pain he is in.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Another hard choice

We had to put a cat down in 2006 for something called FIP. They say it is highly contagious among cats, but there is no way to treat it so as long as they aren't showing symptoms we let them be.

FIP is fatal 100% of the time once they start showing symptoms. Well Cole is starting to show symptoms. Cole is our "special" cat. When we got him they told us he would never be a lap cat. For the first week we had him he hid. Well Big Man went out to his friends place for a Friday. Cole came out of hiding and he and I bonded. He became my cat. Slowly he started to come out of his shell. Now he is the biggest lap cat. He is great with the kids and an all around good cat. He always threw up. The vet couldn't explain why, we tried a thousand different foods and we couldn't find anything wrong with him. He would only do it once or twice a week so the vet said as long as he eats and drinks he is ok.

Well now he is throwing up 6 or 7 times a day, barely eating and excuse the TMI having really stinky, runny poops. I called the vet and we are bringing him in on Friday. I think we are going to have to put him down.

I am heartbroken because he has come so far. He has become a member of our family. Banana's first word was "Cole", it just really stinks.

Final Countdown

Talk me down off the ledge

I am having baby fever BADLY. I have been watching the Baby shows on TLC and I see all the cute squishy babies and I want one. I know mine aren't old, but I miss the cute little bundles of cute babyness.

I know we won't have one for another 4 years, but I want one. I am trying to talk my friend into having one so I can live through her. But I look at my two and will enjoy them now. Sigh I guess little Samuel Scott (the middle name is up in the air) or Brigid Grace will just have to wait a few more years.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

A perfect World

We did our taxes last night. We are getting a hefty refund. I have decided I am going to live in a fantasy world for a while. Where none of our money has to go to bills or moving. Here are a couple of things I would like to buy:

An iPod Touch Big Man left mine in the car after his accident and it wasn't there when we got the car back. Jerks.

dutch oven. It would match my green kitchen. I didn't get my dutch oven for Christmas so this would be nice.

I have always wanted to make creme brulee. While I know I don't need a special kit. It would be nice to have a cool looking kit.

We seriously have almost $1000.00 worth of wine. I can never remember to put it in the fridge. This would solve that problem.

I just want a 12 inch skillet.

I would also like a cast iron skillet.

I like this bed set

That's about it I think. I am sure there is other stuff out there. But that is what I would REALLY like.

Life unscripted

Upon threat of junk punching I am updating lol.

We have had a busy month. The biggest most exciting news is we are moving! We are breaking our lease but I won't go into why, except to say 897 sq ft is way too small for a family of 4.

I am now in the stages of picking paint colors and planning on redecorating the kids' room. Banana is getting a "Tinkybell" bed for her birthday and I am trying to come up with a theme for Little Man's side of the room. I am thinking pirates, because then it will be like a Peter Pan themed room with Tinkerbell and the Lost Boys. But I am having trouble finding pirate bedding that I like. I guess I like them but I am not sure how well they would match. The Tinkerbell is purple and green and the pirate is red and blues. I guess it doesn't really matter does it? Any suggestions would be awesome because I have eyes bigger than my budget.

I am painting our kitchen dark green which is not my first choice. I want to paint it dark red, but all our kitchen towels are green and purple (our "theme" is wine". I am trying to convince Big Man to let me paint the living room and our bedroom too. All he wants to paint is the kids room and the kitchen. I am also picking out decorations for our two bathrooms.

I am really excited about the kitchen though. It is huge compared to the one we have with a TON of counter space. I finally have room for all the cooking gadgets I have.

We were given Rock Band 2 for Christmas and Big Man and I have been playing that just about every night together. It is kind of nice to have this time with him. We have actually done a lot of bonding while we play.